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Rant
Saturday, January 28, 2017 || Now Entering Memory: Saturday, January 28, 2017
Its not like as if there are people still reading this space. I just have to let this out..
I haven't been living my life that happily re rntly right on my birthday.
Family problems happen. Obviously these isn't related to me but I am dragged in.
I got to say this isn't about being in a family or not anymore.
I have come to a point whereby I already have a stand and all in my head and no one can really change it.
I don't care if you are my family, my parents.
It is no longer about filial piety any more.
It is about rights, justice, fairness and all.
I have been pushed to my limits, and I can't bear with this shit as days pass.
I was crying the other day out of frustration, stress and sadness.
My family saw me crying, they asked what is wrong with me and why I am crying.
It is just all the stress anger and hatred I have from my family that I couldn't bear with any more.
Not to mention I have a small short quarrel with my second sister.
They didn't know the reason why I cry.
I mean I am their family member I stay with them almost 365 days and they should roughly know me well. It is almost 20 years.
But they don't.
They call me lame, call me crazy.
Well if this is how a family is like or how family treats each other.
I don't know what to say.
I do not want to go to the point where I would really lose myself and start going in a real crazier manner.
Is there a need for me to harden my heart further?
Or probably just grab the collar of either of my family member's and look at them in the eye and tell them things while giving them punches or slaps.
Honestly, they deserve this.
I have come to a point where I don't even care about my own image or my family's when talking about this.
I don't want to hear anything about family and all bull crap.
Because they don't deserve what actual families are and supposed to be.
I am not bought over through money and materialistic wants.